Sometimes MS can do things to our bodies that make us wish we could just check out of them for a little while. Other times, however, I find myself a few feet away and it freaks me out!
It happens most often if I am sitting and typing at my laptop for a while. Not all of the time; not even much of the time. This sensation only comes over me as an MS ?thing? is about to happen (or is already underway). I get the sense that I am somehow about six inches behind and about three inches above my body.
I almost want to reach out further in order to touch the keys as the feeling is so strong and so real.
This stretch in consciousness is usually accompanied with a tunneling in my sense of hearing as if my brain is that same distance behind my ears. I can move my head around a bit and shake the feeling for a bit, but then it comes back and doesn?t leave. Profound fatigue is at the doorstep by this point and it?s time to find a place sleep before the place I am becomes that place.
The other night, after such an experience at our dining room table, I headed off to bed to await what MS might take from me in the night. During an unusual trip to pee in the night (the sleep which usually follows these out of body things is usually anesthesia-like) I had my first standing outside the body experience since my diagnosing attack.
Rather than being pulled back and up, this time I felt as if my awareness was about nine inches taller than myself and only a bit behind (maybe a couple of inches). It was the weirdest thing; holding onto a wall on one side and the shower on the other and almost looking down on myself from above.
There is sometimes a slight dizziness with this experience. Not a nauseating, spinning kind of dizzy but more a mild earthquake kind of feeling. The room, however, doesn?t shift; it?s my sense of being that takes a rumbling.
As we?ve shared the weird, the frustrating and the scary symptoms of MS here for more years than many of us care to remember, I thought I?d share this one. Anyone else have these feelings that you are leaving your body (or that MS is somehow kicking you out)?
Wishing you and your family the best of health.
Cheers
Trevis
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